no sleep till Brooklyn

I had to go to Brooklyn last night to pick up a kid that ran away. My coworker, Chrissy, went with me, but it would have been even better if Maxine could have gone, since she grew up in Brooklyn. The directions from the internet had us all over. We took many wrong turns, then there were lots of One Way streets so it was hard to get back on track. We did get where we needed to go after getting cut off at the Holland Tunnel. We left close to 5 pm and ended up back home around 1 am; lots of driving. When I told Tina I had to go to Brooklyn, she said 'no sleep'. Some of you may know the Beastie Boys song 'No sleep till Brooklyn'. Ok, I am dating myself now. I took a few hours off this morning, but will head into work this afternoon.

nothing exciting

Nothing exciting going on here. Getting ready for a Quilt Retreat Weekend. I am also trying to finish a quilt that someone asked me to do for a wedding gift. She gave me a month to do it. People just don't realize what goes into them. The top is done and I finished pinning it on the machine this morning.
Mom and I do the CHOW pantry on the 4th Tuesday and Thursday at our church, so this is our week. It ends at 6:30, and I need gas and since I am 10 miles from the PA border, I need to do that tonight also. Big difference in the price, almost 30 cents a gallon.
Tomorrow night I have late home visits and probably won't be home till 7. I think I will have to get up early and put an hour in each morning to get it done before Friday. Then the edge needs to be put on.

quirks

I recognize my quirks. I said to a friend once, why am I like this or why do I think that...she said 'we're all f***ed up'. We use that as an excuse now for everything. I went to Barnes and Noble yesterday after work. I go every month or two, looking at all the quilt magazines. There are so many to look at. Most of them I don't find anything I like, so I flip thru them pretty quick looking at pics to see if there are a few projects I like, then I buy it. I don't want to look too long, cuz that will ruin the surprise of buying it, then there won't be anything to read or look at when I get home. The much anticipated Quilt Sampler in on the news stands now. It highlights 10 quilt shops all over, even Canada. I am a freak about this magazine. It comes out twice a year. It is so anticipated, that I have to wait for the right time to look at it. And then I do so in a ritualist fashion. I go through, looking at the shops, all their pictures, scrutinizing them thinking I would do MY shop this way or that way, or that looks terrible, too cluttered, too dark. It is also an inner struggle of jealousy when I look at it, wishing I had a shop. And I beat myself up for feeling that way. I told you I recognize my quirks, you have quirks too...maybe you haven't admitted them yet. We all have them cuz we're all f'd up.

ponderings

It was a nice quiet weekend. I sewed, so that relaxed me. As I was making a quilt for someone who wants it by 10/7, another person called asking if I could quilt something for her by the end of the week. She dropped it off yesterday afternoon. I did end up getting most of the quilt top done for the 1st person, but I don't think I like it; I definitely don't like the shape. She picked a twin size. This looks really long and narrow, but it's her quilt. I will show her today; I think she should add 2 rows to the side. We'll see. My brother and his wife had a baby last week. Their 5th! Their oldest is in college and the youngest was 11! Imagine starting all over again. He called last night and said the baby is sick, I guess jaundiced. He's all upset and wants my mom to come out for a few days. They live a little over an hour away. I don't know what mom is supposed to do, she's not a doctor! Ok, I admit it, I am a little bitter. Here I am, single with no kids, and they, who can't afford anymore, have another child. And they took the name I wanted if I had a girl. But they don't know that. I just wonder why things happen they way they do. Why didn't I ever meet anyone, get married and have kids? Instead I have to be on the sidelines of everyone's life watching them with their kids; especially the clients who don't take care of theirs. There. I said it. They say everything happens for a reason...

bad week

Wow, what a week. I had to remand a child and place him in a foster home last night. We had to go out with the police, serve the papers on the father and take the child into custody. I hate remands. The child, almost 3, never cried. He came willingly with us who were strangers, then we dropped him at an emergency foster home who was a stranger. He walked up the stairs and in the door like he owned the place. Then today, I had to go get him and move him to a more permanent place. So he went again to another strangers and no crying. He walked into the new house and went to the toys and started playing and took over. I'm glad he wasn't crying, but to go so willingly with several strangers...scary.
I also had a melt down in my supervisor's office on Tuesday morning. Then I had to go out of town to 2 facilities. I hate to cry. I do it when I obviously am hurt, but when I get very frustrated or angry. Tuesday I hit my breaking point. The drive did me good though. I was gone 6 1/2 hours and got back late. I never turned the radio on all day.
As of today, I have 9 hours of comp, which turn into 13.5. Great...more time I can't use. This results in extra days off, but you get behind if you take off. I planned on working 1/2 days on Saturdays, but that results in comp time. On top of the vacation time I haven't used, I have about 14 extra days off. I could really use a day off.

5 years

I can't believe it has been 5 years since the World Trade Center Attack. I remember hearing about the 1st plane. I was at work and a coworker had a small tv in their office we crowded around. I saw the 2nd plane hit. It seemed like we were watching a movie.
They say people remember where they were when big events happen; JFK's assassination, the Challenger exploding, Elvis dying. I think they should make it a national day of mourning.

question

Ok, I have a question for you to ponder, one I pondered...not about myself, but what I heard about a co-worker.
The girl and the guy are engaged, and live together, under 30 years old and he has no interest in sex. She asked him if he was gay; he says he's not. They have been together for a few years, and had sex in the past. The man has no health resons why he can't, like a bad ticker. Now I know sex isn't everything and isn't what a marriage or relationship is based on. So, could you marry someone and live in a sexless marriage and be satisfied and happy-given the above condition?

oh wouldn't it be loverly

You know, if I could just go visit with people all day and not have to do the paperwork, court reports, progress notes and all the other crap, it would be a good job. Today I got to visit with a 'semi-normal' family and it was the first day of school. The kids were so excited to tell me all about their day. It was nice. I also was in a meeting with my supervisor, her supervisor- the director and the deputy commissioner on one of my cases. I thought I might get a new asshole, not that I did anything wrong, but the father is very manipulative. Any who, it went well, but you get a little worried when you get called to the great and powerful Oz's office cuz you know no one gets in to see the wizard, no way, no how.

snooze

The snooze button and I have have become good friends. I hit the button for almost an hour. I just can't seem to get up and end up going in later than usual, which is still early. I used to go in an hour early, but after ending up with 12 extra days off I stopped. Last week when I was on vacation was the first time I used vacation time. Yesterday I said I was going to make scheduling time off a priority. Well I took off all the Fridays in October. That sounds exciting. I can't wait for September to end now!

still hope

Well I'm getting back into the routine. Did the laundry, the usual weekend things. I did get a quilt done for my business. Charlene told me I need to get caught up because she has a few for me to do, so I thought I better get going on them. The only good thing about going back to work tomorrow is that it is Tuesday, only 4 days this week. I think I will make scheduling some vacation off a priority tomorrow! I have my Powerball tickets for Wednesday, so there is hope. I meant to tell Rima that she must have brought me luck on my luggage because after I read her post, my luggage arrived. Thanks.

Sunday drive

2 of my quilt pals and I took a drive today to North East PA to a quilt store. It was a great day for a drive; a nice lazy Sunday afternoon. I am ready for a nap now. One of the nice surprises was that gas was 2.59 a gallon. It's 2.85 where I live. There is a place we usually stop for lunch when we go there, but they were closed. We called back to the quilt store to see if they could recommend a place. They did and it was also closed. I know someone in that area, but he was out of town, or I would have called him and maybe even met up. Still it was a good day, maybe it was fate. On one hand I feel like I wasted the day and didn't get anything accomplished, but we had fun. I guess I should go do something productive now, but I'd like a nap.

babbling

Where are the single interesting men? My clock is ticking here. My friend at work said her husband said this is the last weekend for them to try and have another baby. She said she will go back on the pill when she wants. They have a 3 year old and have been married 5 years now....boy time flies, seems like they have been together longer. Sometimes when I hear my coworkers talk, I am glad I am single. That coworker just completed her Master's degree and her husband said she better get a better job out of it...what an idiot; like a degree gets you a better job. He gets mad when she works late, that's the nature of our job. I guess I am just babbling. I sure am glad it is the weekend. Have a safe and happy Labor Day everyone. Good bye summer.